You feel unfortunate when the circumstances don’t favor what you think. Yes, it’s really annoying to know that things are badly against your heart. What you and I expect is there should not be any problems and everything should be fine. I am sure you are nodding your head right now. However, that’s not life. That’s beyond life and if you are beyond this so called life, then you would be fortunate to expect an impeccable situations that always listen to the murmuring hopes from within your heart. It’s completely flawless to think that you are facing problems but a complete fool not to expect them before it happens or not to accept it when they come.
Sometimes, I feel like I am the only one overloaded with the things I don’t like but remember it’s not always. In that situation, understanding the life as a collaboration of suffering and enjoyments must be activated in your mind. I am not a strong character in this huge world of illusion and as said, most of the time I fall in the trap of totally unexpected troubles. I feel weak and the tears of hopelessness run down my what I called the UNFORTUNATE FACE, however, that’s not me. It’s my life and it’s yours too. I am fortunate despite my life being unfortunate. Sounds crazy? I know that. Don’t start calling me CRAZY FOOL. You are indeed seeing yourself in mine if you do so. The feeling of being unfortunate comes in different chapters of your life but it doesn’t actually upset your days. A successful day is worth fortunate and that makes all the difference in the days to come.
There is one and only reason which often makes me feel unfortunate. I have never felt so unlucky than to lose my special ability to focus on my study. When I mention this, you may or may not think that it’s bad to compare yourself to the good old self. I am very much aware of it but losing my interest in study is an unluckily unfortunate phenomenon that ever trapped my otherwise a beautiful life. There is no concrete idea of how and why I lost interest in study but I am sure of one thing about it. That is I forgot considering how fortunate I am to have given this opportunity(MBBS scholarship in Sri Lanka) after my successful results in grade twelve. I forgot to respect my ability and that brought me to this current mental psychosis which demotivates me with each passing seconds of the precious time of the life which I would never attain again.
With better consolidation of what I think of my life, I am not unfortunate. I am healing my wounds with the special treatment of self respect now. I lost my learning skills or may be my brain function but if I go on thinking on how unfortunate I am to lose them, who am I? What would become of me? Where would I belong? So here I bring the thought of the day, ‘how unfortunate is my life yet I am fortunate’.
I will tell you why this meaningless statement means a lot to me. God wanted me to be in this situation. Though I cannot be a smart student anymore, I can still wear a broad smile on my face. My special ability has given me this opportunity which could hav been impossible in my humble life(being born in a poor family). Actually, I am enjoying a life which I could never have had otherwise. I have flown in the sky, I have walked on the oceans and seas, I have had a majestic walk into the five star hotel, I have captured the beautiful places. I mean I have done what my mind prefers to do(not just focusing on study). I opened the door to a broader world.
Can I talk about my irritating situation? Pursuing an MBBS course, as everyone might think, is a life challenging and struggling encounter in one’s life. It is one of the hardest course one might ever undergo. However, it’s really irritating in my case. I lost interest in studying MBBS. That’s what I meant a moment ago. If it’s ever challenging as expected, I would have challenged no matter how I much I struggle. However, life being unfortunate the course is being interrupted even before it actually begins. Sri Lanka is popular in conducting an antibiotic-like strike against the government and likewise, government has gained resistance against it like those powerful viruses such that they never respond at all. In this regard, college goers especially the medical students are hampered pathetically and lasted for more than a year. It was like a VACATION being declared without an exact date to resume. Being in the vacation, enjoying is only thing that lingers in my head. I enjoyed, we enjoyed but I lost my proper track to my destination. I am not regretting here. I am saying it’s worth a vacation and feel lucky that I am enjoying.
Anyways, life may be unfortunate but I am fortunate- a blessing in disguise.
